Like i almost everytime think about something even if i m doing something else. Basically i am a student just passed +2 preparing for competitive exams. I m not able to focus on studies due to that habit/problem of thinking. Actually I m not able to focus on anything. Like while eating or walking or anytime i think of if that would happen or sth else would happen. Today while i was on roof (chhat) and there is a mind refreshing environment ,there is like a mini garden and cold wind blows but even in that situation I was thinking of sth. Mostly I think of my past like i had a relationship in ma +2 and before 2 months of final exam (last baisakh) we broke up. She even made a new boyfriend and i m not even able to move on from that. I m trying for it slowly but small things trigger me and whole feelings come back.
I am trying to study for my exam but while reading too i think of sth and sth like about past or about some journey or some incidents which i don’t even know will happen in my life. And at last when i couldn’t completely my daily goal of reading and get worse score in mock, while sleeping i just feel fucked up. I ask myself what the fuck am i doing to my life, i make commitment that i won’t think from tomorrow, i won’t do this that and be disciplined bt slowly again i start thinking in background and then use phone then low scores and again the same fking routine.
Any kind of advice/suggestions would be highly appreciated. Thank you.