parents separated when i was 8. spent 7 years in hostel. currently being raised by a single mother. traumatic childhood ,being sexual abused as a kid from my relatives’ teenage sons, being bullied at hostel etc etc I’ve been through it all. I’ve been dealing with anxiety from way back .i isolate myself to avoid people.i don’t have any friends. don’t have the best relationship w my parents. cant afford a therapist. I’ve had harmed my self before, but never really planned on killing myself. but lately things have been real tough. i don’t have the will to talk to anybody. don’t really think anyone would understand. i did once but was told to “stop overthinking and get on w life”. i don’t have any goals anymore. i don’t look forward to anything in life anymore . i get extremely overwhelmed by very minor things. a few weeks back, i was staring at the ceiling fan with a scarf on my hands for about an hour crying my eyes out for no reason. its 2:40 am rn . haven’t slept. nothing particularly bad happened today but I’m exhausted from thinking about the same stuff again and again crying. if i had a sibling,id have killed myself till now but I’m a single child. and everytime I think about suicide, i remember that my mother doesn’t have enough money for the funeral rituals. I’m a 20 y old female . idk what I’m supposed to do. just wanted to vent. thats it.
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You can inbox me! I am F (19).
As someone with mental health issues i see you, iam not here to advise you but rather talk about my experiences that has helped me. Honestly, your life is a mirror copy of my girlfriend, not so good home life, issues between parents, sexually abused,? Suicidal thoughts and attempts.
First whenever i have a good day, i focus on it, im grateful for it, i keep it in my memory and when i have my attacks i focus on it. I keep saying to myself this will pass, this will pass. Focus on the positive times you had. It doesn’t work overnight but keep doing it over and over and it helps in the long run.
With regards to my gf we have tried tons of things. Visited a doctor, that didnt work well. The medicines worked for me but not in her case. They mostly give you something to calm you down and mood stabilizer. In her case she started to overthink about the medicine and it just made it worse. We tried tons of hobbies, painting, doodling, i even bought her a pottery wheel. It used to work for a awhile but then she got bored with it. The trick is to find something that clicks with your soul. What worked is a puppy. Getting her a dog has been the best deal. The small bundle of joy makes her day a lil brighter. Its not a cure but it has helped.
The point being is do try small things that might bring joy and positivity in your life. Walks in nature, a music intrument etc. do not be afraid to talk about your issues, it does help but share with someone you can trust. I wish you luck and strength and pray for better days
If you cannot afford therapist, maybe you can afford psychiatrists and clinical psychologists in TU Teaching Hospital. The ticket price is just Rs 100. Yes, you’ll have to wait for around 1-2 hrs depending on when you arrive, but it may be worth it. Try that. I’d suggest you Dr Sagun, Dr Pratikshya, Dr Saraswati, Dr Pratik. You can also change doctors if you don’t feel comfortable. All the best.
we all certainly can chip in for her therapy sessions surely. it wont even be much pani 10rs from each will be enough for a number of therapy sessions.
hang in there, baini.
Baini. You hang in there alright. Even if you can’t afford a therapist, talking to people really helps. Going out a little really helps too. Of course, you won’t be tempted to do these by yourself. So talk with someone. Please feel free to DM and talk.
Please remember that talking to people and going out a little is always easier than taking your own life.
Baini, you can message me anytime.
I am 21F. Don’t give up. I am praying for you. 🫂
heyy, everything will be better soon.
It’s so weird when people say along the lines of ‘stop overthinking’. Like bro why didn’t I think of that already. ‘others have it way worse’, stuffs like these make you feel way less validated.
Hi baini. Esto nasochnus. You can take a look at gofundme website for fund raiser to visit the therapist. I can also offer you some money if it needs to be to visit few counsils. Strong bannus, daily affirmation haru sunnus, afai positive affirmations bhannus.
Eg. Mero jiban ramro chha. Mero ramra dinharu audaichhan. Mero ra Meri aama ko jiban ramro hudaichha. Etc. Esari affirmations garyo bhane hamro dimag le Universe sita kura garchha ra timilai ramro baato ma lanchha. Youtube Dolores Cannon ekchoti ra uhaa lai sunnus sakchha bhane. Jiban ta bhagwa le dinu bhayeko euta present ho Nani. Ramro hunchha jiban, timi haresh nakhanu.
Arko kura sunnus, maanish le sodhena bhane kehi jawaf paunna. Sodhyo bhane kehi na kwhi pauchha. U can also try asking help with good teachers for directions or guidance.
Will sponsor your therapist and I know a good one myself. Can dm me. It’s going to be alright
I too get sucidial thoughts sometimes. Life is a long journey and is a suffering path. The terrible phase you have lived and been living is small chunk of your long life. Be patient, one day you and I will get free and enjoy life. I’ve now to suffer another 3 years and I’ll be free and enjoy life, this hope has been keeping me alive. Don’t lose hope and yourself, be patient my friend.
Hey, If you need someone to talk , use discord. There are so many servers according to your interest.
[https://discord.gg/tyykvCw5](https://discord.gg/tyykvCw5)
[https://discord.gg/english](https://discord.gg/english)
Hang in there, you are a really strong person.
Since you don’t have money for therapy, try to see some videos online about mental health and healing. Also start meditation, it will help you ALOT. You can change your situation and your life, more power to you 🙏
Don’t do that for the sake of your mother. After she left this planet you can plan yours afterwards
if you need someone to talk to, feel free to dm me. I may be able to help you.
Cant even say anything when i dont know what i want other peoples to say and what i am doing is nothing good too
When ever i got suicidal thought i see a glimpse of my mum laughing with me and i was like you scumbag fool and slap in my face and back to normal. I wish I could give her everything she dexerves.
Hey, message if you need someone to talk to. Similar situation but dealing with it now
All I wanna say to you at this point is you are a strong person enduring all that. I need you to become the hope for your mom. Its going to be all right.
Hang in there little child 😊
Listen to music , don’t do that , I m sure will be better , try meditation,deep breathing your 50 %anxiety will be solved . Don’t do that yes Ur a fighter
life is misery,pain,regret, unexpected things happen.easy to say death,giving up will solve all ur problems,but still u will be looking for ways to be happy again, because u know death is scary and u really don’t want to die,u only want ur pain to go away.
all of these will be finally over one day, and that is when u have left this world, that day will come for everyone whether one likes it or not, u don’t need to wish for that day to come sooner than it will naturally , till then struggle, cause struggle is what defines life.
Well what i would say to u is ” you should start looking at the bright side of your life , although life is tough these should be something that u have which might give u some relief like look at the world who is happy. Nobody is happy for all the time .u should realize the truth . U have an extraordinary things called life and u are alive. ISN’T THAT ENOUGH. U should be grateful to your parents that they gave birth to u . I know u have some memories that are so precious to u . Hardships will come to everyone in different form . Don’t feel like u only u are on this , we all are struggling, we all have sometimes in life have thought of ending life . U should understand that being happy is just lack of mental and emotional barriers. A state of ease. U should think about past and ruin your life . U should accept that u cannot change Past but be Calm at the present moment so that like in your future.
If u need any help regarding the things I have said feel free to ask cause its your life , your chance to experience life at its fullest and u shouldn’t be confused
same bruh. 22M
never wanted to kill myself more.
You’re amazing for staying strong all these years of your life. It is surely very tough but I hope you can push through. I have been down that road, glad I couldn’t muster the courage to do it, I’m in a better place rn and I sincerely hope that times will get better for you. Stay strong, you’ll get out of this and I’m sure your mother will be very proud of you for sticking with her. More strength to you.
Let go of the past it’s simple. The past is already gone think of the future u don’t live in the past any more nothing will come out thinking about your past it won’t change. But think of future and ur mothers future .Try to make things right again for your momma and you
Keep living with your head high not just for you but your mother as well
DO NOT dm anyone here, superficial motivation and “dhadas” dine comment section ma samma is ok but do not go dmming randos esp on reddit. Take care, be brave. I wish good on you sister.
THIS TOO SHALL PASS