Disclaimer: This post is extremely lengthy and contains inappropriate vocabulary. Coincidentally, koi chineko manxe bhetiyo bhane please be patient, respectful and try to provide productive advice without being extremely judgemental. Also, the same request for everyone else. Dherai samaya dekhi post garna man thiyo tara aat ahile matra aayo.
Ma yei barsa SEE diyrra Australia aaye. Result auna 3 mahina baki thiyo tyesaile ma school pani join garina(yeta barsai bhari enrollment hunxa). Socheko thiye SEE ko marksheet lagera bujhaidiyepaxi tiniharule 11 ma admission dinxan hola ani admission meeting request gardai email pathako, tiniharule confirmation call ma 9 ma bharna gardinxau bhane kinabhane umer kam bhayo(Australia ma minimum age for being in 11 class is 17 years old and maximun is 18 years old. Contemporarily, I was 15)and also because of board exam system here which I was unaware of at that time. Yeta ko 12 ko board exam lai SACE bhaninxa jasko assessment 2 barsa lamo hunxa, meaning from both 11 portion and 12 portion. You also receive 20 credits for qualifying for SACE by completing “Pathways” subject at semester/year level in class 10 with minimum grade C.(Legal justification of why they didn’t put me in 11)
(Yo event huda result aisakeko thiyo tara NEB ko gradesheet aako thiyena.)
Yo phone call batai sabai samasya shuru bhako. Shuru ma optimistic nai thiye ki “la ekdum perfect situation nabhaye pani padhai nai rokinu bhanda ta ramrai option ho” tara FOMO hit hard soon after. Mero sathiharule kun college ma gako bhanera sunaudaina thiye tara FB ma update airakhtyo koi yo entrance topper koi tyo etc. Maile pani yo dekhera socheko thiye “iniharu aba aile +2 course padhdai xan, ma chai kina paxadi parnu. Tyesaile maile indian textbooks of PCM padhna thale along with watching video lectures from yt because tyei readily available thiyo ra malai yeta ko syllabus ko pani kei knowledge thiyena. Hence, familiar course nai padhe due to which I could consult with my friends for problem solving too.
(My concern with remaining at the same level as my friends is that I don’t want to be jealous of them enjoying bachelors life while I strughle in school. I don’t want to regret seeing that they are earning handsomely, while I will be writing assignments in uni.)
Bullet fire bhaisakeko thiyo yo point samma ani 2 hafta samma sirioos bhayera padhe(mole concept,vectors,limits and derivatives,complex numbers,dimensional analysis,kinematics,linear inequalities and modulus).
Aba auxa kahani ma twist, 2 hafta paxi euti Indian kt naya enroll bhayi. U sanga alikati introduction and familiarisation garne kram ma sodheko kati class samma padheko thiyou India ma ani reply ma 7 class bhani ra usko umer pani mero bhanda sanai lagxa malai(sodheko xuina). Yo answer le mero dimaag kharab garirakheko xa ever since. Discrimination bhako hoina hola but k dekhera admission diye uniharule achamma lagxa. Yo ghatna paxi bichar gare ra tyei mathi lekheko 20 credits ko barema thaha paye. Ma danga pare ra malai risuthna thalyo. “Chutiya harule kina aadi saal ko lagi 10 ma haldenan, yesle garda jhan time bachthyo” bhanne lagyo. Tara k accuse garirakhnu kinabhane tiniharule pani bhanekai thiye yo saal subject choose garna paideina ani cautious nai thiye hola future ma padhna man lageko subject padhna paos bhanera.(Although malai manparne PCM+English ko lagi sabai compulsory subjects batai requirement fulfill hunthiyo ani aru kunai garnai man xaina ra hudaina pani hola.)
Anyway, getting back on track, gradually unmanaged self study le garda assignment backlogs banina thalyo ra herda herdei dallai 5 ota sub ko weekend ma sakkayera submit garnuparne thiyo(Ma ghar ayera 11 12 ko matrai padhthe ra hw jati school ma matra garthiye). Backlogs clear bhaye tara yo ghatana paxi ma ajhai cautious bhaye hw xitai sakna lai as I was conscious about maintaining my grade too. Mismanagement ko karan duitai self study ra assignments hand in hand jana sakenan ra ma assignments lai dherai focus dirako thiye. Herdaherdai 1 mahina gaisakeko thiyo ramrari padhai nabhako ra maile aile matra notice garna thaleko thiye.
Situation lai analyse ra recollect garera padhnai man lagna xodyo. Uta nepal ma sathiharuko pani exams shuru bhaye ra ajhai demotivated bhaye. Euta kaam thiyo of studying ra tyeslai pani chutiyappa gardai bigare. Sathiharu dherai agadi badhisake ra ma dherai paxadi xu. Catch-up garna dherai time lagxa ani euta na euta kura sacrifice garnai parxa tara k garne kei clarity xaina. Lagxa ki nepal mai basera dhukka sanga padhera traditional way mai ako bhaye ni hunthyo as my time wouldn’t have been wasted athawa 10 ma admission deko bhaye pani alik kam dukha lagthyo hola. Aba bhanna pani sakidaina school ma ki 11 ma halde because the only proof that I have of my proficiency is a shitty marksheet from nepal. Nepal farkera pani auna sakidaina because of several familiar reasons namely judgemental society and friends, nosy relatives, shame and dishonouring parents’ sacrifice to name a few. Therapy pani lidina because of the same reasons. Please tell me what to do I am so lost🙏🏽🙏🏽.
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Don’t put your life in race, life is not about degrees and success . It’s more about enjoying daily life . As long as you able to keep your self healthy body and happy mind you doing ok.
Ma ni Nepal ma 12 ma huda school chodera US aako. Yeha aaye pachi credit requirement haru namilera I joined high school as a sophomore (10th grade). I graduated high school then went to college here. I recently graduated college with an engineering degree. High school bata pheri school suru garda compared to your friends in Nepal 1-2 barsa pachi parincha but it does help you to prepare for college. You will know about the school and education system and other processes. Compared to international students, you will pay in-state tuition and get other benefits.
Bro brt bata ho?
Honestly, I think almost every one has a similar story in different circumstances. My friends have completed their masters and are earning a handsome salary in a foreign land and now they only visit Nepal once a year. Almost all of my school mates are abroad. I was struggling due to financial and health reasons so I was left behind.
I had one thing in my mind. “I am capable of living an enjoyable life at my own pace.” At the end of the day, your life is important and you need to enjoy it as much as you can. Let it go and give yourself the opportunity to grow at your own pace. At some point you will reach there, maybe a year or two late. At least, you will have enjoyed the processes rather than stressing about it. Also, you will have more opportunities (btw grow your network in these times) than your friends in the future if you are able to pass with flying grades.
I see this situation you are in as an opportunity. There are so many people here in Nepal, who would want to have your life even though theirs is completely fine. Don’t beat yourself down. The tunnel you are passing through has a bright end. Give it your all. You will get there!