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Ma sanga matra jaile kina yesto hunxa
So, ma chahi euta extreme introvert and I don’t like talking, outing anything I like outing traveling but alone. So the thing is ma matra kina yesto kaile kai malai aafule aafulai sodhna manlagxa ki why why I am like thiss kina sometimes I hate myself for being an introvert nobody likes me my family, my friends, classmate nobody even teachers too. And I feel bothered why IAM like this .
Apart from that I am padaku baccha k haaii and from bacchha dekhi ma ekdam padne tara class ko 1st kaile nahuney 2nd 3 rd top 5 matra aauney I used to study sooo much k huncha ni but never never I never thought I got my goal hunxa ni padeko jati result kaile aayena. And jindagi ma kaile fail navako ma aile aayera BCA 1st SEM ma nai fail vaye and tyo pani maile yetiii jyan hunxa ni mari hattey din raat navani tetro mehenat gari padethe kkk. Kasari vanuuu like hunxa mero lagi cgahi I don’t know why always this happens to me but yes hardwork never pay to me aba koile vanlan smart work garaa vanera but I did that too but hmm never kk like why tf actually I studied business in+2 but in bachelor maile aat gareki ma computer tira lagxu vanera and I did hardwork tooo but. I failed that tooo.
Just wanted to share this to all of you yesto ma sanga matra ho ki aru lai ni hunxa?
Me realising how lonely I am and started to talk with my own self thinking that I am talking to someone else and soon I realise that I am talking on my own…
Edit : ma chai padai ma kamjor introvert
Hunxa bro dherai lai hunxa.
if you still think padera kei hunx i label you as immature kid…Tei mathi IT field maa xau where degrees’s like useles paxi passout vayera prolly noone gonna ask abt it … skill is all that matters irl…focus on aquiring skill rather then exams and marks..IT skillz badau , communication skill badau , build your network , surround yourself with money minded hustlers peps …myself 5th sem BCA stu .. 1,2ta maa lageko ho ma ne kei farak hunna just keep on working on your interests eventually you’ll find peace
I think since it is your first time failure its okay to have such thoughts. Trust me you are not alone. Many people are in way worse position. What you should learn to do is move forward. We do a lot of mistake on spending time on useless past that happened. Its sound so cliche but it is what it is. You are going to change. This time will change. Remember change is only constant in this universe. Its in your hand. Go work in your skill. There are a lot of free course where you can learn a lot of things. Remember you still may have to face what you consider as failure. But take the energy to improve yourself not to think about that failure. Hope you will do good.
Same op same. Only difference is, I am joining BCA first sem this year.:-)
Not really I mean I think it happens to many people for me I guess I won’t call my self a complete introvert as I can talk to people when it is needed but rarely do I want to talk to others and like to be alone.
And going from buisness to computer in itself is hard, you also seem to expect alot from your self so this failure really hit hard.
You will meet people someday who you enjoy to be with it’s just a gradual process and don’t be to hard on your self to study maybe go out sometimes you can even travel alone (I travel alone mostly and it helps build confidence) but what I’m saying is just don’t give up.
First find someone yo talk with. Maybe Reddit strangers ??
Arko kura faliure are just life lessons dnt take it otherwise.
Dnt get stuck in one thing if you feel like over burdening yourself with it. Chodera Aru kei pada of IT sakdaina vani.
Dnt expect too much from yourself.
Too much expectation leads to frustration.
Ma ni testai ho aba budi ni huna laisake. Rest of my family is very social.