Loneliness is starting to hit hard these days

Loneliness is starting to hit hard these days

I don’t have a lot of friends. Count garyo bhane I got 3. And 2 of them are abroad. Diuso message garyo bhane madhya raat tira text back aauchha.I haven’t had any issue with being alone. I used to enjoy it. But recently it’s starting to feel more lonely than alone. I don’t have such a good relationship with my family either. I’ve been isolating myself from them since my early teen nai. And they were fine with it so I never tried getting along properly after that. (I mean emotionally here. I do socialize with them and live with them, talk with them, help them, basic family things but without any emotions or closeness to it. Doing it for the sake of doing it type ko)

I was out a few nights ago. Ghar ma basna manthiyena so i told my fam I’m going out with friends but in reality i was just alone. When I saw people enjoying out with their families and friends, that’s when it hit how lonely I am. I tried getting in a relationship. But things don’t click with anyone. They Don’t understand me and they never will type ko feeling aauchha. And then interest goes away.

Met a really nice girl. Ek din jhyap bhako para ma sabai man ko dukha pokhidiye. She tried to be there for me. She’d check up on me daily. And we hung out a few times. Really amazing person. But the feeling I felt was. I don’t deserve all these nice things. Eventually started ghosting her. And now I’m back to the loneliness.

And now I feel like I’ll never have an emotional connection with anyone and idk if i can fix it even though i really crave an emotional connection with someone sonetimes. I’m just a void. Blank. Nothingness. Empty. (No I don’t wanna die)

Sunne lai sun ko mala.

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31 thoughts on “Loneliness is starting to hit hard these days

  1. Psychologically you seem to be pretty aware of where you are emotionally and mentally.
    But you need to start accepting and loving yourself, only then you will be able to get past the “I don’t deserve all the nice things” mindset. Do some inner reflection on these factors.

  2. TBH, this is just like everyone else. Just a transition phase from happy teenage to mid-lives….haha. Most importantly, u have to be happy with your choices other things will eventually fall in line. Nothing matters if u r not happy with ur choices.

  3. Journel your feelings out , same here I have most up to 2 friends kaile kai matra we meet kura hudaina but still whenever we meet it does the deed ani taking a gap Iam completely isolated by myself and only family but they don’t get me so most of the time iam on my own . Just euta dairy kina ani lekhna thala you will feel at least heard by yourself.

  4. Having few friends is not so bad. It depends on the quality, not quantity ni. During my dark time, it was the connection to one friend which helped me through. That being said, having to hang out by yourself when you’d rather be in company can suck.

    But then when you did have someone reaching out, you ghosted them. You felt you didn’t deserve it. That can become a self-fulfilling prophecy where you feel bad and maybe bitter that you don’t have anyone and then you act bitter or jaded which then makes you unapproachable, or as in your case where you ghosted and isolated yourself, which just solidifies your solitude further.

    As others have mentioned, journaling helps. Liking yourself and making yourself more empathetic towards others and kinder towards yourself with help too. It’s never late to make new acquaintances and friends either.

    All the best!

  5. Might seem insensitive but no friend stays forever. It is natural to lose connection with many. And it is also natural to make new connections. Don’t feel sad and start making friends. It ain’t your fault.

  6. Well I feel you, Closest Friend went abroad, Since then been in a couple groups. But Ahiley I probably have 2 3 Friends. And we talk once in a While. Haven’t been out of my house for a Couple months now ( I work from home). It is hard but I saw no other option than starting to enjoy my own company, It is hard. Still getting used to it. But for now I will just focus on working and gaining skills. J huncha huncha, Out of my control. Tara I am sure I am gonna have more friends future ma.

  7. Better be alone n isolate now n use good time of it . Better get Engaged in exercise , sports ,courses , travel n other curriculum . Once u go abroad u will be more lonely n stressful . Be strong n think positive

  8. Mero pani testei cha aawstha. Sathi ni koi chaina. I know a lot of people but sathi nei chai chaina. Ghar basya bela ta bahira ko koi sanga kurei hudeina. Na kaseiko msg aaucha na kaseiko call aaucha. Kaile kai chai ali garei huncha tara I guess I am used to it now. Afuali movie herera, geet sunera distract hanne gareko chu. Cousins haru sanga bhet huncha kaile kai ani tyo bela chai ramailo huncha. But unharu pani arkei city ma baschan so kei occasion parya bela ho bhet hune hangout garne bhaneko. Dating apps haru try garya thiye tara tei ta ho ma ta lastei demotivate huncha tyo apps bata. Match nei aaudeina ani ali din mei hya jasto lager chalauna chodinchu. Yestei cha aba. Achamma ni ladeina aajkal ta malai, yestei ta ho ni bhanchu baschu tei ho.

  9. Pathetic. Unmanly. Loser.
    Yes, a random stranger is calling you Pathetic and a loser.

    Let’s see what you’ll do to take revenge. Just downvote and shout at the comment or
    improve yourself and your life

    If you are a real man you know what type of revenge you need to take.

  10. I’ve gotten so used to this loneliness, it’s been like 3 years since I’ve been dealing with it, it used to be difficult, now it’s just when I don’t feel lonely it feels not normal.

  11. Bruhhhh i doubt you are a void, if you were, loneliness wouldn’t bug you.
    What you want in life is certainty. Write down what you prioritize the most in life, or what you think is important for you. Then chase it.

  12. Why are youngsters so fucked up nowadays days!? First build connection with yourself. Socialize huna club ma gaera jaad khane naachne matra hoina. When you are happy within you will attract good ppl.

  13. Start working out. It helps. Will help you meet some new people too. I used to go to play snooker made some good friends over there. But depends on your liking. And even if you don’t make friends you will be proud at least to have a good physique

  14. Trust your process. You’re absolutely in good path of figuring out your life and this time is just a phase. When things starts to align together the loneliness will disappear like a wind. And when you look at this time of your life you will be proud of yourself. The people you see have fun everyday, posing on social media doesnt even have a life. I believe they’re clueless and confused more than people like you and me. But, everyone has their own way of paving their life path. Good luck on your journey. I hope you find your light very soon.

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