Turned 20 today and I’m disappointed with my social life so far

Turned 20 today and I’m disappointed with my social life so far

When I look back at my teenage years, I feel like I’ve missed out on so much in life. Spent most of it locking myself in my room playing meaningless video games and browsing you know what on incognito tabs. As such I never got to experience what it’s like to properly socialise with people, and hence I was always a social outcast, a pushover to every person I met, never had any relationships (a thing that bit me for the most part), and an absolute bore of a human being. All I ever had was temporary relations with people which too felt conditional and forced at times. The only good thing I had was a family who took care of me and always looked out for me, but then again I recall the fact that I was often rude to them and pretty much pushed them aside to overcome my own insecurities.

And now I sit here, entering a new phase of my life but still with a clouded mind and uncertainty in where I go from here. I’ve made a bit of a headway by completely cutting off porn, and reducing the time I spend on video games, but it’s not really helping, in fact I feel more depressed than I did before. I’m not sure if I’m taking the correct steps. What would you guys suggest?


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