tl;dr
10 class kei bela thiyo, sakkina lageko thiyo and there were like 4 madhesi guys in our class. there was one guy whom my gang used to bully a lot. hepe ko hepai garne k every single day. he was such a nice person, padhai ma ni kasto ramro thiyo, well spoken and for some reason he was so kind and gentlemanly towards girls. I used to talk to him every day, homework ma kasto help garthiyo, kasto maya gari gari sikaune k.
sab le hepda pani he used to stay so calm. calm thiyo and kei gardaina thiyo tei bhayera jhanai hepne k mero sathi haru le. me and my gang were like the typical 'cool wannabe' gang. but Him & I used to be really cool with each other k like hunxan ni vibes lastai match garne. Tara I didn't understand ki why he used to be nice to me even though my gang used to bully him so much. (note: i never bullied him but once tyo ni the last time we talked). Din bitdai gayo and one day my cool wannabe bit*h ass decided to bully him too. why, because my stupid bit*h ass wanted some validation from my friends. That's it yayyy! 🙁 . ani like gayera uslai "Hi k xa mero madhise kalluwa babes" bhandeko purai class le sunne gari, paxadi chai mero sab sathi haru hasirathe.
ani tespaxi….i still feel tyo hurtful moment when he looked at me with his innocent eyes. he was looking at me silently hunxani tyo movie ma bhako emotional moment jastai. i looked at him aswell k kasto kasto bhairathiyo. purai silent bhayo k kasto khai k bhako ani few seconds paxi i saw tears coming out of his eyes. ani malai tei moment ma kasto regret bhayo k.
1 min passed. and he went completely beserk mode. i still remember that moment clearly. trauma ni xa malai tyo moment le garda. purai beserk mode ma gayo sablai hanna thalyo usle malai ni hanyo. like compass liyera ghopna thalyo, bench ma bhayeko items liyera hamilai falera hanyo. I still remember tyo scary roar like sound. purai "sab lai mardinxu sab machi*ne ran*i ko xora xori lai mardinxu ma" rudai rudai hami lai gali garirathiyo. paxi teachers haru anunu bhayo, we were injured because we were stabbed by compass. our parents got involved.
SLC aisakeko thiyo so expel chai koi bhayena tara hami sabai lai school ma entry garnai diyena. ghar ma basne ani last ma exam dine.
SLC ko last exam sakine bela he suddenly came to me and apologized for hurting me tyo din. purai like bow garera sorry bhaneko thiyo usle. ma chai usko presence le nai traumatized bhako thiye purai statue jastai silent bhako the ani u gayesi. that was the last time i saw him.
I regret it so much and i wanted to say sorry. tara bolnai dar lagxa. so….sabnam i am so so soooooo sorry. maile timlai hurt gareko ma. and if you see this please feri bolam na timi bata dar ni lagxa tara timro yaad ni dherai auxa. 🙂
if he had not been from madhesi community, maybe, just maybe, he would have been my boyfriend aile… khai…. kastoooo k hyaaaa
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