Guys, it is normal for a 20 year old to expect love from father, isn’t it?

Guys, it is normal for a 20 year old to expect love from father, isn’t it?

Quiet of an introvert I am, don’t have people to share my vulnerabilities- to be honest I just can’t open up to the people. So, here I am sharing things to the complete strangers on the internet.

If you remember the post that goes something like this then that was me-

{I am 18M. My dad moved to Saudi Arabia in 2060(year I was born). He stayed there for 4 years and returned to Nepal after 4 years, think Saudi didn’t pay him much so. I came Kathmandu with my mom in 2064. I remember that box tv (CRT) I saw for the first time. After his return, he worked for Marwadi. He had his salary increased from 3000 later year to 5000. We paid 1800 rent and Rs. 600 was my school fee (Dhaulagiri IBS was pretty cheap and good I assume) and gas, grains would finish the rest of the salary. I still remember that I used to cry while going to school due to the pain caused by my shoe because it was small to fit in my feet and I would not get new one for long time. He moved to Dubai after 3 years and you know why right? That is the longest that my dad and I have been to same land………

He would come to Nepal once a year after that and during his visit he would teach me how to tell time using clock and ask me multiples of numbers but I could not say those. I remember him telling me “पढेर गरी खादैनस।” and a light punishment of course for my deeds.

But those created a fear in my mind towards him. I don’t make much effort to talk to him, know that I never made it to be honest.

I wish I had my dad around when I was growing up so that I would have a better personality and manner. Mom did her best to raise me alone but still I fell incomplete without dad. I wish I could talk to him freely. He is doing that for me and the family, it is such a shame for me to say that I don’t appreciate his existence……………………………………………..

**(TLdr: That whole post was about a 18 years old me ranting about how I could have been a better person if I had my dad with me when growing up; )}**

He is a good person. I feel him little harsh.

I am 20 now, dad came and left 2 weeks ago. He scolds me loudly for shit of a thing which makes me sad, I am that fragile. He comes once for a month in a year or two. I rarely talk to him on video call. It is the campus in the morning when he is free, and my campus work when I am in home. I don’t even try, what am I supposed to say. Its that fucked up.

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Guys, it isn’t normal for a 20 year old to expect love from father, is it?


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