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Loneliness is starting to hit hard these days

Loneliness is starting to hit hard these days

I don’t have a lot of friends. Count garyo bhane I got 3. And 2 of them are abroad. Diuso message garyo bhane madhya raat tira text back aauchha.I haven’t had any issue with being alone. I used to enjoy it. But recently it’s starting to feel more lonely than alone. I don’t have such a good relationship with my family either. I’ve been isolating myself from them since my early teen nai. And they were fine with it so I never tried getting along properly after that. (I mean emotionally here. I do socialize with them and live with them, talk with them, help them, basic family things but without any emotions or closeness to it. Doing it for the sake of doing it type ko)

I was out a few nights ago. Ghar ma basna manthiyena so i told my fam I’m going out with friends but in reality i was just alone. When I saw people enjoying out with their families and friends, that’s when it hit how lonely I am. I tried getting in a relationship. But things don’t click with anyone. They Don’t understand me and they never will type ko feeling aauchha. And then interest goes away.

Met a really nice girl. Ek din jhyap bhako para ma sabai man ko dukha pokhidiye. She tried to be there for me. She’d check up on me daily. And we hung out a few times. Really amazing person. But the feeling I felt was. I don’t deserve all these nice things. Eventually started ghosting her. And now I’m back to the loneliness.

And now I feel like I’ll never have an emotional connection with anyone and idk if i can fix it even though i really crave an emotional connection with someone sonetimes. I’m just a void. Blank. Nothingness. Empty. (No I don’t wanna die)

Sunne lai sun ko mala.

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